I don't like you Mommy

labels or love?

while my colleague beside me is obviously quarrelling with her boyfriend aka husband-to-be, over HDB matters... here i am wondering why are there such numbskulls on earth/in Singapore?

are guys these days so dense as that?
i refuse to believe that our dad's era of men are all extinct.
there is some hope! i think...
i hate to have to stereotype.

oh well... live and be happy!
life's too short to fuss over boys.

so i concluded, i'll have Fergie's song as part of my life's music playlist.
the lyrics are.................... cool ;)

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of

I already know what my addiction is
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
I shop for purses while I walk out the door
Don't cry, buy a bag and then get over it
And, I'm not concerned with all the politics
It's a lot of men I know I could find another one.
What I know is that I'm always happy when I walk out the store, store

I'm guessing Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna to walk a mile in my kicks

Love's like a runway but which one do I love more
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more

I know I might come off as negative
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
Relationships are often so hard to tame
A Prada dress has never broke my heart before
And, ballin's something that I'm fed up with
I'mma do the damn thing, watch me do the damn thing
Cause I know that my credit card will help me put out the flames

I'm guessing Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna to walk a mile in my kicks

Gucci, Fendi, Prada purses, purchasing them finer things
Men they come a dime a dozen, just give me them diamond rings
I'm into a lot of bling, Cadillac, Chanel and Coach
Fellas boast but they can't really handle my female approach
Buying things is hard to say
Rocking Christian Audigier, Manolo, Polo, taking photos in my Cartier
So we can't go all the way, I know you might hate it but
I'm a shop for labels while them ladies lay and wait for love

the art of hidding

question: is it healthy to hide relationships?
obviously not.

would you be truly happy?
it seems so stressful to do so...
what's the point in hidding?
all i see are negative outcomes.

i hope she sees it.

everyone is an adult here, so i don't see a point in having to purposely deceive others or prevent others from finding out.
what's so shameful?

if you love and care for each other, that's enough.
people should and would give their blessings!
our impression has changed.
and it is leaving one party hurt and affected.

but i'm proud of him - proud that he is handling it just fine.
all those bottled-up frustrations, who would know? and who would care?
is there a way i could possibly help?

love isn't painless, but it is unconditional.
that's the way love is suppose to be.
or at least that's what i think.

i hope they work this out soon.
hate to see them like this....

Pixar - Tennis Commercial

why bother

why should i bother being nice when in the end i always get shit for it.
no appreciation whatsoever.
cept for a black face.
why should i even bother trying then.
i just don't understand the logic in that.
not as if that's the only one that can be used.
all because of laziness, selfishness and own ease of usage, that causes inconvenience to others.
what crap.
who isn't tired, who doesn't want convenience, who doesn't want the easy way out.
why can't the peace be longer...
then i wouldn't have to put myself through all of this.
been away already, talk online whole day, phone calls... it's never enough.
i need my peace again.
it's good to be alone. seriously.

Rav 4

i hereby declare that i rav 4 drivers suck.
big time.
road bullies they all are.

Britney Spears - Womanizer (Director's Cut)

yummy mummy!
welcome back Britney!!!

it just happened

not as if i hoped/wished/prayed for it to happen so i simply can't understand why it is so hard for you to just accept the truth?
offer some words of consolation?
show some care/concern?
why must it have to be like this?
why do you have to be like this?
am i just suppose to suck it up all the time?
it's just so frustrating and it makes me hate telling you anything.
it doesn't have to be this way.
is it really so much to ask for?
i'm taking the responsibility, i'm taking ownership of the matter, why can't you see that?
is everything never good enough in your eyes?
why can others be nice about it but you can't?
i really don't get it.
i don't think i ever will.

an analogy developed in Malacca

once again, heartfelt thanks to Grace, Peiwen and Denise for this very memorable trip.
looking forward to many more to come!

thanks for listening and sharing with me memories, thoughts and feelings.
i've been thinking and guess now i know what to do.

came up with this analogy whilst in discussion with one of the topics,
Mei asked: "but jie, you always give people the benefit of doubt, you're always able to handle stuff."
and my reply was: "even water bottles have their limits. a 500ml water bottle's function is to only hold 500ml worth of water, nothing more than that. pour anymore into it, and the water will just overflow."

i am not a bottomless pit.

sorry is just merely a word.
what weight does it hold anymore these days...
*shrugs*

post celebration with my SIM girls

Thanks girls, for all the effort and planning.

it was a wonderful dinner, get-together.

cheers to more ahead!

*hugs*

pointless rambles

and so the truth is told.
seems like nobody wants/needs to hear about it.
i know i don't need to know.
cos' what you don't know won't hurt.
as long as you're happy - it's ok.
you're right, everything sounds like excuses.
so what's the point of explaining anymore?
it's ok. just drop it.

Christmas Carolling

Christmas is around the corner!!!
my favouritest time of the year.
time to hit the streets of orchard to soak up the atmosphere...

hopefully we'll find a group willing to do Christmas carolling soon!
any choir to intro, please email me or leave me a comment?

it's the time of the year when it rains all the time, it's cold and windy,
and when we all wish we had someone to spend the special holidays with.

i'm so glad i watched High School Musical 3!
it was awesome. reminds me so much of my CHIJ days somehow...
how nostalgic...
i'm listening to the album on Ineem now! haha.

looking forward to my road trip this Friday!
need a break badly.
looking forward to be out of this place, somewhere different.
somewhere i can just let loose and be comfortable.
so many places to go, so many things to see.
i'm sure we'll have a good time! :)

now that a recession is looming and dooming,
i wish everyone well.
those who are still in school (uni), try to stay in there as long as you can.
the job market is not at all friendly now.
crime rate is high and everyone probably isn't in the best of moods.

good luck guys. take care...

emotional measurements?

thanks to Nic, i have a food for thought...

statement: there is a difference between being emotionally strong and emotionally indifferent.

so what are you?
and
what am i?

hmmmmm.....

Desaru Staff Party 18 Aug 2008

Photos from Cartier International Polo 2008

save save save

so now that recession is looming, it's time to tighten our purse strings, BIG TIME.
no unnecessary spending and buying.

just had an insightful conversation with a working partner/contact.
she offered some tips of being cost-savvy.
now it's not about being a cheap-skate but it's about spending wisely.
cutting down petrol costs isn't going to change much.

travelling has now become a luxury, again. even more so than before.
people, this world-wide financial crisis is not funny.
it is affecting us, more than you'd imagine.

time to wisen up, time for me to do some financial planning.
saving money is the only option now.
thing is i need to plan on how to curb all the unnecessary spending.
as one of my colleagues just mentioned today over lunch: food should never have to be expensive.
true that.
so instead of going to some snazzy joint for a steak, why not just go to friendly ol' NTUC or Cold Storage and do some DIY cooking at home! with the company of friends, why isn't that lovely? :)

ok, i need to start thinking and planning.
time to hide in a shell!

sigh... to think Christmas is near...
nope, ain't gon' let this dampen my year end festive mood!!!

drink, get drunk and forget

need to get rid of all the pests.
i hate bugs.
they shud all go away.
make them disappear!
NOW!!!

don't tell me what to do.
stop questioning. if i don't question ur intentions/actions, then don't question mine.
in a life full of doubt, suspicion and cruelty, we certainly don't need to contribute to that.
believe it is fully self-sustaining. in fact, thriving very well.
already feels like my life has been significantly shortened.

could use a couple of jagerbombs...
i was told, 6 and your eyes will go rolling.
i'm gonna try for 4!
let's see what happens.

the winner takes it all

so many questions running through my mind.
could it have been all just a lie?

how difficult could it be to just come clean about it?
and i had to find out through people & technology.

perhaps it's casual, perhaps it's convenient.
my feelings sure as hell wasn't important.

everyone says all humans are naturally selfish, i thought - no. not you.
i wouldn't say i think extremely highly of you.
though you were quite there.

the last person i thought i would ever have to second guess.
it didn't and shouldn't have had to turn out this way.
refusing to believe that life is just built on lies or denial but guess what, it has been proven.
of all people, of all things.
through it all, all this while, utmost faith & trust. no doubt about it.

things were almost perfect, i couldn't ask for more.
but somehow, unexpectedly, reality sets in and I get slapped in the cheek.

painful, it's true.
but don't worry, it'll all come to an end.
it always does.

it's all about the money

the tune that pops up in my head now is Donald Trump's theme song on his reality program *money money money money...... MONEY*

thats how the world is now isnt it?
it's ALL about the MONEY.
vitamin M some call it... haha

we all know we need money for basic necessities, to fulfill our physiological needs.
but due to increasing influence from the west, education, internet, media etc, everyone is becoming more affluent. and thus willing to spend.
we all know about the power of influence and pursuation.
how far does this go and what can we do to curb such disbenefits?

disbenefits because they do slightly more harm than good.
spending money on things we technically don't need.
they are mostly wants.
go on, admit it. you know you don't need your branded wallets, bags, shoes, clothes etc...

we all fall prey to worldly desires that most of the time, we loose focus on the more important things...
what could possibly be more important than self-happiness and fulfillment?
many things...
- doing works of charity, outreach to those who are needy. you and i, blogging on this sphere, definately NOT needy.
- spending time with family members at home, instead of going window shopping and spending over $6 for a cuppa at Starbucks/Coffeebean.
- buying less clothes because the cupbaord at home is bursting, while kids overseas wear your hand-me-downs, or worst, they wear things that perhaps some of us wore once and decided never to wear again

back in school, we all had this tendency to compare ourselves against people who did better than us, scored higher marks than us, who were in better class etc etc...
but when it comes to such social issues, we would compare ourselves to those who are "worst off" - those who spend even more money than us, or those who shop as if their bank accounts have an endless supply.
isn't that such a contradiction???
YES. definately.
in this case, shouldn't we snap back to reality to realise that we are indeed that bad as well?
i don't see most of us comparing ourselves to those who are poorer, who can't afford luxurious/branded items, right?
this calls for some self-reflection!
or are we just to self-righteous to do so?

money makes a couple fall out.
money makes a family fall out.
money makes siblings bitter.
money makes people unhappy.
money makes people desperate.
money breaks friendships.

that's the harsh reality isn't it?
everyone is just getting increasingly practical and too realistic for their own good these days.
just look around you... who doesn't carry the latest model of handphone, who doesn't own an I-Pod or Mac Book, or even just a simple laptop, who doesn't wear any brands, who doesn't own any brands, who can't afford the cafe scene, who can't afford tertiary education, who can't afford eating in at least a food court everyday, who doesn't aspire to own their own credit cards, house, car or collection of something.
we're so hard to please aren't we?

what is the meaning of contentment then?

choices, decisions & calculated risks

thought of the week:

1) is it better to be indecisive?
or
2) is it better to be decisive?

choices.... choices..... and MORE choices!
that's what life is all about isn't it? :)
made up of choices and decisions to be made, every other second/minute/hour/day.

every choice of an action comes with a price to pay, be it good or bad.
when it comes to "life" choices/decisions to be made, there is no such thing as a RIGHT or WRONG decision. there are also no perfect plans.
when a decision has to be made, it just has to be made.

live with the consequences! that's the next step.
be practical and pragmatic.
in the face of decision making, people would USUALLY have thought through the whole process and SHOULD BE fully aware of the consequences for both their "RIGHT" and "WRONG" choices.
but somehow unfortunately, not everyone has that gift of foresight.
that's why there are different types of characters/personalities, no?

some people are great at macro managing - the gift of great foresight;
whereas others are better at micro managing - looking into the nitty gritty details of things.
few have the best of both worlds.
nevertheless, work hard towards achieving both! =D

no matter how hard anyone tries to foresee issues or problems, there's always bound to be a loophole, somewhere, somehow.
murphy's law.
but that's just life isn't it?
else, there wouldn't be something called regret.

my next question would be: "why regret?"
there is no point in doing so.
easier said than done. definately!
but ahaa! that's life's challenge! ;)
the trick is calculated-risk.

one can only plan so much and so far ahead. but what about the now?
what about the short-term goals?
what about the back-up plans?
not everything has a sure-shot solution.
there isn't a perfect scenario.
no such thing as an easy way out.

we can't say for sure what WILL happen but we can TRY to make things right, as best as we can and as far as possible.

RuPaul - Supermodel (You Better Work)

Malacca June 2008

Memories from Malacca 27 - 29 June 2008

friends who are interested to watch a really cute video of little Elijah, please ask me! =)

Denise's 21st in Spore - Round 1

* THE STAR OF THE EVENING *

Thanks for inviting us to share your evening.

revival

cheers to the revival of my blog!
it's about time!
a form of communication between cuzy Grace and i...
just our little way of keeping in touch and knowing whats been happening in each other's busy lives...

sorry cuzy, this took way too long.
longer than expected perhaps?
hope ure doing well in Beijing!!
hugs, missing ya loads!

aside to that, i've done a little revamp to my blog template, as usual, i cud never figure out how to change the blog skin, so just had to rely on good ol' blogger.com to do the job for me. hassle free! ;)

it's friday now. weather's been dreary, but it isn't always such a bad thing cos we'll all get to slp in and enjoy the lovely weekend!
time has been passing by us so quickly. too quickly sometimes i feel.
we've just entered into the third quarter of 2008!
i've now been working for nearly 7 months.

every year just passes by us so fast. is it such a good thing afterall?
just when i thought it would be so long, so painful, it still is.
are things always so easy to let go?
are things meant to be let go so easily?
i struggle to find the truth sometimes.
if only life was like a ten-year series, we would have model answers to everything.
i wish there was a way to understand...
time will make things right, i believe. In His time...

convocation is coming up! i'm excited!!! :)
a goal that was my vision throughout uni life - at times when the studying/memorising and projects were getting too much to bear, this vision was what i held on to, to keep me going.

thank God for His strength, without him, i would not be where i am now, and doing what i'm doing.

i would like to take this opportunity to wish all my dear friends who are still in uni, to share this vision with me. stay strong. remember why you are in school. not because of friends but because of what your future might potentially hold. life is what you make of it.
you will learn to treasure uni life, no matter how tough tutorials/assignments/projects are.
be grateful that you are one of the lucky few who even get a uni education.
not all of us are born that fortunate, always remember that.

before i head to bed, i would like to close this entry to congratulate my dearest cousin Grace on her job extremely well done, as always. this time, you are recognised cuzy. your efforts has not and did not go down the drain! you are famous now cuz. people will head-hunt you. if your employer doesn't treasure you, someone else will. remember that. you have made a mark for yourself. i'm so happy for you and i'm sure ur parents are too! =) *hugs
i just pray that you are safe & well everyday there cuzy.
take good care of urself and know that u are in my thoughts.

Good Night...

7-8 June's Sermon @ QOP

preaching was done by Fr. Ambrose Vaz
as usual, it was both spiritual and enlightening.
i'm glad i attended mass at QOP that evening.

He spoke of God's restorative mercy and love.
Our God is not a God of destruction, but of forgiveness and mercy.
throughout the bible, we note that God has been patient, despite being tempted by the devil for 40 days in the desert.
in the Gospel it was mentioned that God dined and fellowshiped with tax collectors and sinful men - it is the sick who needs to see the doctor, not those who are well.

God is divine. we must remember to call on him in times when we need healing & restoration. we need constant guidance to do the right thing and be on the right path.
self-righteousness will not get us anywhere.
how tough must we be to fight against our own human nature? to overcome our own fears?
when do you know you've had enough?
when will you learn to give up and let go?

putting the needs and welfare of someone before yourself - an act of charity and love - is it so difficult?
it is challenging, that i know.
but surely, it is not impossible.

how does one be wise and yet not be emotional about things?
how does one manage yourself and self-convince?
there is a purpose and plan in everything.
if only we are patient enough to wait on the Lord.
trusting that He will make our paths straight.
how does one surrender to the will of God, just like how Abraham did - the willingness to sacrifice his only son Isaac, when God decreed?

our faith is like a seed that needs to be planted in good soil, in order for it to grow.
Your will be done, not mine.

Usher - Love In This Club [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO]

Evolution of Dance

new pronunciations

thanks = tens

correct = cor-right

can't stand people who are fake and try too hard.
don't they know that they CANNOT MAKE IT?

i just simply can't respect irritants.
playing some kind of political mind games.
who do they think they are?

shall not stoop to their level of bad english and horrible attitude that stinks big time.
uneducated bunch of clowns.

which is kinder?

food for thought:
i wonder which is the lesser of 2 evils, hmmm........
to not know how to show someone you care about them?
or
to care too much, that it gets you into trouble?

familiar faces

yesterday, i spent a few good hours with my pals.
it was nice to hear familiar voices, and see familiar faces :)
random thoughts flashed through my mind and i knew it has been quite a while since i last caught up with them.
sorry i have neglected you guys all this while...
but thank you all for making the effort to hang out, it was worth it! i had fun with you guys. thank you!

work life balance. it isn't easy. not even now, without a family, it isn't easy. imagine how it'll be like having your own family, yet still trying to stay afloat with the latest gossips and catch up with close friends!
time is never on our side, or is it?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo........ i refuse to fall under a 'no-social life' category!

looking forward to being home, in bed, cuddling up with pillows to read seems to be the only charm right now... gee.

i hope Grace and Shiqin are having a good time in Bali now!
i wish i could be there with them... i believe part of my heart and mind is :)

annoying & insulting

don't you find people around you these days becoming increasingly insensitive, annoying & insulting?
i just don't understand how some people can be so selfish. only looking out for their own interest and/or happiness/fun.
they should just grow up and not be such a pain to society & especially to me!

don't understand how some people can be so dense.
i just hope i am not one of them. no. i am sure i am not one like them.

God please help these people, help them to understand things better and be less annoying to humanity.
Grant me the grace to forgive and be patient with them. i know it is not easy but pls help me try to make things better. help them to realise that the world does not revolve around them.

during your Ascension tomorrow, please help me realise the importance of my faith and religion. help me to seek the truth and with your guidance, may i find the answers to my thoughts. i sincerely hope to grow into a better person - to be more Christ-like. help me to see the good in everything i do, in the people i meet and in the things that i have and all around me. help me to appreciate what you have created and what i have. help me not to take people/things for granted.

back with a mission

back from Bali, back to work.
monday, and i was already drowning in work.

to think we all could laugh and joke about me getting "bluffed" into this job!
haha! come to think of it, it is kinda funny. ironically.


just a quick shout out to all my dear friends:

i'm really sorry that i haven't been in contact with most of you, at least not as often as i hope it could be. work is NOT an excuse but it certainly is the reason why i havent been ard or that u havent been hearing from me.
sincerest apologies.
would like each and every one of you to know that i have not forgotten you.
all of you are very much still in my heart, thoughts, prayers and well-wishes.
thank you all for your kind understanding.
whenever you need to look for me, look no further. you can find me here...


work isnt dreadful, it's just that i'm still learning to cope and multi-task.
i have quite a few things on my plate now.

it's sunday now and i'm still at work.
i really hope this wont be forever.
i hope nthg goes wrong today and that i can cope with whatever comes my way.

i felt esp emotional yesterday when i was told of what was happening here.
i know somethings are beyond my control.
but i seriously need to get a grip of things. i feel exhausted.
i hope i dont burn out so soon because there's so much more to come.
'never say die' shall be my motto for the weeks ahead!
i shall stay strong and persevere! i know i'm not alone in this. :)

Bali 10 - 13 April 2008

my third trip to Bali!
i'm so looking forward to a well-deserved and long-overdued holiday break!
gonna catch some sun, sand, sea, sights, shopping, food, teh-botol and massages!
a decadent break is just what i need.
hehe! =P

packing in still in progress...
will be bringing back krispy kreme for you peeps k.

take good care of yourselves and hope all is well with you.
have a good week ya'll!

020408 statement of the day

Ability may take you to the top,
but it takes character to remain at the top.

April Fool's!

looking at the pages of my blog, i thought to myself,
i must make the effort to keep my blog alive by posting nonsensical!

happy april fool's day everyone! :)
hope u guys didnt get it too bad by your friends/classmates/colleagues.
afterall, it is all in good fun ya ;)

work has been crazy busy as usual for me.
im a lil' under the weather the past few days...
then again, the weather has been awfully crappy *shrugs*

ok random things:
1. i miss sch / student life
2. i miss afternoon coffee sessions
3. i miss sleeping in in the mornings
4. i miss grocery shopping / bonding sessions with my mum
5. i miss doing unproductive things
6. i cant stand sounding nasal
7. i miss the chicken cutlet at TP Biz canteen
8. i miss TP life & all my tourism mates

oh well...

anyway AGM went ok yesterday... we didnt meet quorum but we did ok.
didnt end as late as we thought it would.
at least there was no banging of tables or throwing of chairs or even yelling...
and at least GM let us come in at 10am today =)

ok, back to work!
take care one and all!
do drink more water! :)
shalom...

postcard

"With Caesar's mind comes a box,
that comes alive with a perfect square."

an unexpected greeting from afar, never fails to create the sweetest smile :)

HAPPY EASTER!!!

can't be held responsible

i just cant stand it when it seems to be my fault. or at least you make it seem as if it is my fault.
just because you're tired doesn't mean no one else is.
my world doesn't revolve around being of service to you only.
don't expect me or anyone else to read your mind all the time.
expectations can and do weaken one's mental strength.

it's just too tiring trying to be nice all the time.
it doesn't pay to be kind all the time.
ya true, perhaps only God knows.
it's not as if i am trying to play the victim or trying to seek attention,
but i just feel that you can be so unfair at times.
throwing your weight around isn't going to right the wrong.

i've grown up.
i have my own life now.
i can't always be at your beck and call.
i hope i'm not becoming too selfish.
but i just hope you can understand sometimes... it's not always about you.
i do have to admit, this is all partly my fault as well.
oh well... let'e hope some things can change over time.

on to a lighter note, it's a brand new week! mid march already!
time has passed us by so quickly, again.
i'm in my 3rd month of work.
i'm getting the hang of things, still there is so much more i need to know and learn about.
esp Polo. the next few weeks, starting from tomorrow, right into April is going to be pretty crazy! lots of events to prepare for. i am looking forward though :)
team effort at this point is of utmost importance.
esp for the BMW event. i never felt more thankful for them both who stayed behind so late, despite having to wake so early to standby for the event later that morning, to help Steff and i. really, thank you both so very much.
we owe you both big time.
it is at times like this, that i learn the value of team work.
running on 3 hrs or less of slp was no joke. adrenaline was all we had to get us through the day. the event turned out a success anyway! and God was on our side with the not-too-bad weather that day. haha! :)
nevertheless, i am thankful.

anyway, cheers to a new week ahead!
happy holidays too! =)

one hill is always higher than another

just like investments, every decision and choice in life is tied to a risk.
and just like the economy and the market, there are bullish and bearish years/periods.
ups and downs, simply put.
likewise with our thoughts and the things we do, isn't it?
one way or another, we just somehow end up in a whirlwind of mess, it could be good or bad, big or small; doesn't matter.
what's most important is what we take out of that learning lesson/life experience.
we must remember that we are in control of our own lives and that no one else is responsible for you, except you.
we should all learn to look for the light at the end of the tunnel, because going around in circles will not do anyone any good.

i need you to realise that it's not that i don't care.
it's just that i've learnt to be more selfish now.
because, do realise that i'm only human, there's only so much i can take.
perhaps you need to realise that you need me more than i need you.
life is not always a barter trade; or a tit for tad situation.
what you give, is what you get.
i hope you can learn to manage...

i'd like to end off with a statement that i came up with, at a random moment:
'even the strongest of absorption pads have a limited capacity.'

P.S. I Love You

finally got round to catching this ultimately romantic movie!
i even found the soundtrack! it is out of stock at several music stores...
this movie, may just be another movie, but it truly touched my heart in more ways than one.
the love and emotions were so intense, it activated my already very active tear ducts.
it's amazing how love supersedes everything else.
truly amazing love story.
'sometimes there's only one thing left to say'............ how apt.

Class 95 moment

heard this statement made by Glenn Ong over the radio this morning on his G-Spot segment and thought i'd share it with everyone...

'Everything you need to be you,
you already have.'

all things great and small

in our lifetime, we learn and inevitably go through the process of decision making...
we consider both macro and micro perspectives, attempt to stay objective and realistic,
try hard to stay true to ourselves, our emotions and values, try to consider how other people might look at us, what they think about us, or even, how they will feel.
but seriously, how many of us can truly make a good judgement/decision?
how many of us can multi-task well?

not many.

the truth is we're never alone.

decisions in life aren't meant to be easy.
but we mould ourselves, don't we?

as cliche as this sounds, really, we just need to follow our heart.
the answer may already be in you.
it's just up to you to face it.
most of the time, we're afraid.
fear gets to us when we're the weakest.
but don't ever succumb to it! challenge it.
make the most out of your life.
good opportunities don't come by every other day.
neither are they given freely, to every/any one.
there is a bigger world out there then just you and me.
it's up for exploration and growth.
so make full use of it!

second sunday of Lent taught me this,
we must pray for the courage to forgive.
FORGIVENESS.
For - Give - Ness = For - Giving
GIVE.
when we are afraid to give, we become selfish creatures.
but think of it this way, Jesus, He forgave us and gave his life for us.
what more could we ask for?
so, why can't we just forgive people who aren't so nice to us or those who have done us wrong?

it's not easy, true.
then again, nothing in life ever is easy, isn't it?
ask yourself the following:
was school easy? was meeting new people easy?
are maintaining relationships easy? is work easy?

we must/need to learn to forgive.
because forgiveness leads to peace and understanding.
it is truly wonderful virtue to possess.
i'm learning to accept that Love is pain and suffering, because our sufferings & pain comes from those we love/care about.
how willing are we to embrace love and forgiveness?

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Thanks Leon, for telling me about this video! lovely emo song!

CNY 2008

happy chinese holidays

time has passed by so quickly, Jan is over, Feb is here!
so many things/events to look forward too everyone! :)
i've been working for the past 1 mth and things are more or less stabilising, so i'm thankful.
besides the bouts of usual headaches i get, i'm otherwise still fine, learning and adapting...

class 95 is my best companion at work and daily rushing is common.
the feeling is kind as all of us work hard together and do our best.
it's good to have a family environment! it's been confortable here :)
also, i have an extremely fun bunch of f&b staff here, who not only constantly feeds us good stuffs, and also educate us on fine places to dine at and how to appreciate food.
lovely bunch of pple really!
they've worked hard for the opening of our very own f&b outlets here in the club.
oh btw, the club's f&b outlets are opened to the public to dine, so listen up everyone! if u guys feel like visiting me or just wanna try out the superb food here, do give me a buzz! i cant gurantee a discount but i can assure you guys of the standard! ;)
soooooo.... if u guys are into french/chinese cuisine, fine dining style, do let me know!

cheers to one and all for the long week(end) ahead!
i'm really looking forward to nice long slp sessions & relaxing! :) hehe!
i'm also looking forward to sinfully yummyliciously yummy food! esp at my uncle's place!
will upload some pix, if i actually remember to capture them.... haa!

here's wishing one and all, a blessed lunar new year! =)
take care and drink more water ya'll!

Achmed's Jingle Bombs

Eddie Izzard- Death Star Canteen

Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist

Tiffany - I Think We're Alone Now

stable and field

working at the spore polo club has been enjoyable thus far,
the work is not insane, in fact i feel too lax most of the time.
comfortable is a gd word to describe the experience here.

i realised i hvnt quite blogged in a while...
i do miss my 'dear diary' moments.

new year, new experiences, new things!
time to do smthg different?
chinese new year is also ard the corner! time for our yearly pilgrimage?

ever since the start of the new year, time has passed by pretty quick
let's hope everything goes well.
wishing one and all, happiness and peace!

when does what mean

sometimes certain things that people say affects you - directly or indirectly.
or is it just pure sensitivity, or a lack of it?
or is it merely a sweeping statement?

but the question is how can you help/prevent it from affecting you too much or ignore it?

well, one of my resolutions is to learn how to prioritise and manage my emotions.
rather than having people remind you that you're messed up huh?